8-30-98 ah, that old familiar feeling.... lonliness, abandonment, solitude... except this time: I'm a senior. haww yeah. :) 8-18-98 cool ass monkeys: I GOT AN A IN CALCULUS!!!!!!! WARCHALL IS GOD! I'm happy =) 8-4-98 "Who got the hooch, baby?" -Everything 8-3-98 A GLOBULAR MAYHEM Q: Animal, mineral, vegetable or December? "Me lady? I'm your worst nightmare: a pumpkin with a gun."-N.Gaiman 7-28-98 A priest, seeing a blank signboard hanging on a lamppost wrote upon it: "I pray for all." A Solicitor wrote underneath: "I plead for all." A doctor added: "I prescribe for all." A simple citizen wrote: "I pay for all." 7-1-98 Whatever is worth doing at all is worth doing well. Chesterfield (1694-1773) 6-26-98 "Give me my money back give me my money back you bitch" -Ben folds five Damn the man. I'm not a real person! 6-20-98 They can because they think they can. Vergil (B.C. 70-19) 6-9-98 A Pessimist thinks all women are bad ....an Optimist hopes they are. >:) The only reason I log on anymore is to change my .plan and read others' changes. How curious. The fates lead the willing, and drag the unwilling. Seneca (B.C. 3-65 A.D.) 6-08-98 "I wish the real world would just stop hassling me." -matchbox 20 6-7-98 Wisdom of the day: You cannot hold a tunafish sandwich in your mouth and type at the same time, unless you are in an essentially zero-gravity environment. 6-3-98 When you sit with a nice girl for two hours, you think it's only a minute. But when you sit on a hot stove for a minute, you think it's two hours. That's relativity. Einstein (1879-1955) 5-28-98 Extreme bumper sticker: 5 days a week my body is a temple. The other two, it's an amusement park. does anyone actually read this thing? I'm convinced that six months from now when all the seniors lose their jove accounts, I will be one of three people with shell access to jove in TAMS 5-18-98 Failure isn't in falling down, it's in failing to get back up. Have a lovely summer dears, and KIT. 5-13-98 "If you don't eat your meat, you can't have any pudding. How can you have any pudding if you don't eat your meat?" -PF,ABOTW 5-10-98 Growing old is mandatory. Growing wise is optional. 5-8-98 :singing: "It's Friday I'm in love" 5-3-98 All the world is danglin' danglin' danglin' for me darlin' -Tori (Tear in your hand, little earthquakes) If you need me, me and Neil'll be hangin' out with the dream king. 4-30-98 ------ MyWho v0.1d ================================ by Benjamin Bradley ------ 1) elw0005 [Y]: Elise Waltman On: . |Loc: remote13.local.gener 2) bgb0004 [Y]: me On: . |Loc: ppp10-32.ght.iadfw.n -- Thu Apr 30 00:27:08 1998 ---------------------------- bbradley@iname.com -- ~ % write elw0005 elw0005 is not logged on. ~ % mw ------ MyWho v0.1d ================================ by Benjamin Bradley ------ 1) bgb0004 [Y]: me On: . |Loc: ppp10-32.ght.iadfw.n -- Thu Apr 30 00:27:26 1998 ---------------------------- bbradley@iname.com -- ~ % 4-29-98 duct tape 4-19-98 I always wonder: If my life were a movie, what would the audince be screaming at me right now? :Singing:: I got a network! I got a network! so until may02 when you see me idling for 6hours, I'm actually idling for 6 hours :) 4-18-98 "I Don't Know Whether To Kill Myself Or Go Bowling" -song title 4-15-98 check out my door I have a new decoration ;) This morning I received in my mailbox, almost half of an envelope with the letters "raining" and "ndation" in what remains of the upper left hand corner of the "envelope". The upper right hand corner features two 32-cent yellow rose stamps. In the middle of the "envelope" is my address. This item was enclosed in a clean clear plastic bag which featured the following text on one side: "Dear Postal Customer: The enclosed has been damaged in handling by the Postal Service. We are fully aware that the mail you receive is important to you. Realizing this, each employee in the Postal Service is making every effort to expeditiously handle, without damage, each piece of mail with which USPS is entrused. Nevertheless, an occasional mishap will occur. The Postal Service handles approximately 177 billion pieces of mail each year. It is necessary, therefore, that highly sophisticated mechanical/electrical systems be utilized by the Postal Service to insure our customers prompt delivery of their mail. At times a malfunction will occur, the result of which is a damaged piece of mail. We are constantly working to improve out processing methods so that these incidences will be eliminated. You can help us greatly in our efforts if you will continue to properly prepare and address each letter or parcel that you enter into the mail stream. We appreciate your cooperation and understanding and sincerely regret any inconvenience you have experienced. Your Postmaster " I am thouroughly amused. 4-10-98 Arg. I got iced. ahah but now he has to kill a lookalike :) "Everybody wants prosthetic foreheads on their real heads" TMBG laugh at the world through blue glasses 4-9-98 Lessee... Sunday: had to schedule my parents into my calendar to have dinner with them Monday: ? Tuesday: no class (Falkstein out of town and no chemlab b/c easter) Wednesday: ? Thursday: saw oatmeal wrestling Bard's birthday bash will rock ass! everyone come!!! April 23 8-11 in Mac!!!! 3-31-98 If the government has no knowledge of aliens, then why does Title 14, Section 1211 of the Code of Federal Regulations, implemented on July 16, 1969, make it illegal for U.S. citizens to have any contact with extraterrestrials or their vehicles? Can you feel like a child? Can you see what I want? I wanna run through your wicked garden Heard that's the place to find ya But I'm alive So alive now I know the darkness blinds you Can you see without eyes? Can you speak without lies? I wanna drink from you naked fountain I can drown your sorrows I'm gonna burn, burn you to life now Out of the chains that bind you Can you see just like a child? Can you see just what I want? Can I bring you back to life? Are you scared of life? Burn, burn, burn Burn your wicked garden down Burn, burn, burn Burn your wicked garden to the ground Can you feel pain inside? Can you love? Can you cry? I wanna run through your wicked garden Heard that's the place to find you 'Cause I'm alive So alive now Out of the dark that blinds you Can you see just like a child? Can you see just what I want? Can I bring you back to life? Are you scared of life? Burn, burn, burn Burn your wicked garden down Burn, burn, burn Burn your wicked garden to the ground -"Wicked Garden", Stone Temple Pilots 3-30-98 "It is impossible for a man to learn what he thinks he already knows." --Epictetus (50-138 A.D.) "I want to be educated because I have determined that understanding how this world works aids me when I wish to create within its boundaries." -Tim Hurley 3-29-98 ah, if only I could have stayed up the whole time. I have cheeks now! :strokes face gleefully: The more things change, the more they stay the same. well shit. yep it's me just jackin' with your head (maniacal laughter follows) HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!! 3-23-98 5 days to p-a-r-t-e-e=!!! prom is gonna kick ass!!! check this mess: over spring break I scored the following CDs: C&C Music Factory 2x James Brown and George Clinton plus a kickass dance tape I made. haww yeah. 3-19-98 I met John Romero today he was easily twice as cool as I'd expected. and I know where I want to work if only I had enough talent to do anything more useful than pick up lunch for them. ;) 3-14-98 Happy PI-day everyone. I just got over 14 hours of sleep. 3-9-98 It's official: "CAFFINE INTOXICATION" I ODed. 3-2-98 I need to stop thinking of women so much as women and more as people. 2-29-98 "Because he bought her chairs." - the best love advice I've ever heard in my entire life, from _Phenomenon_ 2-28-98 "I'm sorry about the attitude I need to give when I'm with you but no one else will take this shit from me." -Matchbox 20, Longday describes some people I know LIVE! 2-26-98 11 Hours of sleep feels really good. 2-25-98 (still) here's so some people will know what I mean and why I say "sonna ma bitch" -- Attention-Attention (Must be read with an Italian accent, preferably out loud) One day ima gonna Malta to bigga hotel. Ina morning I go to eat breakfast. I tella waitress I wanna two pissis toast. She brings me only one piss. I tella her I want to piss. She says go to the toilet. I say you no understand. I wanna to piss onna my plate. She say you better not piss onna plate, you sonna ma bitch. Later I go to eat at the bigga restaurant. The waitress brings me a spoon and a knife but no fock. I tella her I wanna fock. She tella me everyone wanna fock. I tella her you no understand. I wanna fock on the table. She say better not fock on the table, you sonna ma bitch. I don't even know the lady and she calla me sonna ma bitch. So I go to my room inna hotel and there is no sheit onna my bed. I calla the manager and tella him I wanna sheit. He tella me to go to the toilet. I say you no understand. I wanna sheit on my bed. He say you better not sheit onna bed, you sonna ma bitch. I don't even know the man and he calla me a sonna ma bitch. I go to the checkout and the man at the desk say: "Peace on you." I say piss on you too, you sonna ma bitch. I gonna go back to Italy. -- 2-25-98 Hm, this is ironic: I use Notepad to write my application to TI, but have to open Microsoft Word to use a Thesaurus. 2-22-98 I finally put the happy page up: http://members.tripod.com/~lostpoet/live/ or http://people.unt.edu/~bgb0004/live/ 2-17-98 (later) (singing) Somebody has NT... 2-17-98 Hamilton Hicks thinks I'm a goth smitty boy! If any of you are going to Harvard/MIT/Boston area or know someone who has (from TAMS), he'd like to know... you can tell me and I'll relay it to him or else I'll have to dig up his e-mail addy. 2-14-98 On the frequency at which cars containing myself crash into other cars on a street named Oak Why? Zee? No, because my name is not Jay and I might be fined for jaywalking Where were they going? Where are they not going? Sitting by the side of the road waiting for Mister Police Man Does that store really sell hemp or is that a band name? A gray couple and, one can only assume, their cheerfull granddaughter What a fine day! The breeze is blowing & the sun shines on my head There is bliss in ignorance... But why on Oak street? Because that's where we were driving, of course But why on Oak street _again_? Because, that's where we were driving. But again? We take the same route every time and so, you see, there is a 100% chance that any accident we have en route will be on Oak street. Oh. The Barber's door is open buzz buzz buzz Rachel saw it! She and her many piercings can all testify to this fact: What sort of BOZO thinks she can make a left turn from the right hand lane? on a one-way street? with no turn lanes? Damn I'm hungry. Mrs. Anders 2-13-98 "Bap bap bap bap bap bap bap bap bap bap bap/ Psycho Killer/ Beter run run run run run run away..." :::::Comprehension::::: :smile: 2-10-98 Okay so I have this theory: If you see person A who happens to look like person B whom you know, then there is a greater probability that person A knows another person, person C, who looks like you. and that's why strangers look at you for extended periods of time. I am Cornholio! I need TP for my bunghole! are you threatening me? 2-2-98 'Expunge the 1 deleted message from "INBOX"? Yes' -pine 1-25-98 Ahhh, completion brings such great joy. Introducing... the Hand checker!!!!! (a .plan checker) okayed by Bobby. should be 100% compatible with fingerck's data files! improved (mostly bobby's suggestions): o optionally prompts to send e-mail after viewing changed .plan! o many many options and text can be changed o should be faster (internal word counter, instead of calling wc, and reads in all finger info at beginning, that's the pause(s)) o doesn't use external temp files, so it shouldn't have nearly as many problems as fingerck (scratch space doesn't matter, only RAM memory) o and best of all!!!: it's all text! so if you know what you're doing, you can add your own stuff! :) and the documentation is internal! (and still smaller than fingerck!) load it up in pico to read documentation <<--- do this!!!!!! availability: from my jove account: do a cp ../bgb0004/pub/handck.pl to copy it to your home dir. from the web: http://members.tripod.com/~lostpoet/ftp/handck.pl or http://people.unt.edu/~bgb0004/ftp/handck.pl and of course I'm open to suggestions/etc. expect updates in the weeks to come.... and of course... have phun yall! 1-22-98 this is nothing significant. 1-17-98 home... and again the whole identity crisis thing along with the realization that I have an almost total lack of direction in my life and no more motivation than to edit my .plan 1-16-98 Tomorrow!!!!!!! Home!!!!!!!! Ok Nifty thing!!!!! check this out yall! Call 1-888-PAGOO44 At the prompt, enter my ID: 2143306706 then leave me a message! numbers or voice. preete jeefte eh? it allows about 15 seconds of voice.. I haven't tested it for numbers yet... and then when I log on, it'll give me the message!!!! Is my phone line busy? Page me! whoo hoo! Come on and ride it, the choo-choo! 1-13-98 "Everybody needs a bosom for a pillow."-that 45 song 1-3-98 I was dissapointed this morning becuase I realized that I would only be bringing my computer's RAM up to.... 40 MEGS! OH MY GOD! That more than doubles it! I'll have to wait until I get back to school for the rest of my ... 64. 12-30-97 (after reading my happy e-mail and calming down a bit) Okaaaaaay everyone! It's EDUCATION TIME! How to kill dead connections (if you get disconnected but it still says you're logged in): 1. find out which TTY port you're logged in to. Just type tty and it will return the info in the form /dev/pts/## The pts/## is what you need to remember 2. ps is a command which tells you all the processes (programs) you have running with their PIDs (Process ID) and which terminal they were run from. Now, look for a process(es) with name tcsh which are *not* on your current port. tcsh is the command shell, it controls the running of all other programs and commands, killing it should kill everything on that tty, if not, just repeat these steps for the other processes. 3. type kill -9 (the 9 is the strongest kill, some programs are resistant to certain levels of kills.. think of it as the importance of that kill command) ta-da! no more annoying ghost logins! example: ~ % tty /dev/pts/61 (I'm logged in to pts/61 - I want to kill all others) ~ % ps PID TTY TIME CMD 24604 pts/61 0:01 tcsh 21067 pts/33 0:02 tcsh 24770 pts/61 0:00 ps (I want to kill the tcsh on pts/33 - it's PID is 21067 ~ % kill -9 21067 that's it! You can type ps again to make sure it's gone. :) 12-30-97 (like an hour after the one below) What the fuck? I get my phone lines back after an incredibly long time without them, manage to log on to check my (copiously accumiulating) e-mail and my computer crashes then jove goes down. What the fuck!? WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK? Do you want me to kill someone? Just gimme a fucking phone call or a letter or tap on my window! Jesus Christ! what the fuck!?!?!?!?! 12-30-97 Okay. One of two large 2-year dead trees has fallen the phone lines have been restored my 12-year old sister has begun learning QBasic the kitchen and dining room floors gave been cleaned and waxed and I *finally* get to check my e-mail/call friends/etc. a lot has happened in the past day and a half. 12-28-97 Why can't I love more than one person? Why is it not "socially acceptable" for me to be attracted to, and develop relationships with more than one person? Why can't I be married, in perfect harmony, with many people? Why doesn't everyone think it would be perfectly alright for me to have more than one soul mate? There is more than one mountain! 12-27-97 What's up with Jove being down? That's whack. Yet another instance of schwag. 12-25-97 You're on!! You're on!! write ytalk rering? n write what's up? no response? on for: 1:19:23 hmmmmmmm....... damn jovesystem that doesn't kick dead connections. 12-23-97 Missed you by 20 minutes. Damn But isn't that the way it always works? 12-20-97 Benji's back!!!!! 12-10-97 Today is dress-up day! I am, I feel, in my opinion, quite sufficiently "dressed up." 12-9-97 I'm so happy! I got up early this morning! I got showered and dressed by 8am! I even squeezed in some work (my self-reproductive program self-reproduces!) And I looked at the clock and I still had time to listen to my (currently) favorite CD and still get to class on time! and then I remembered.. fuck. it's tuesday. there's no Biology on Tuesday. "I have faith in medication I believe in the prozac nation. ... She says she wants to live in a movie I say I want someone else to stand behind me and write it all down becuase I can't be bothered doing it myself and I don't want the resposibility of proving its importance. I have loved and I have waited. been picked up and been sedated mental health is overrated This is where it ends This is where it ends. Call the police and call the press, but please, dear god, don't call my friends." -"This is where it ends",Barenaked Ladies 12-8-97 "All I can say is that my life is pretty plain I like watchin the puddles gather rain And All I can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view but it's not sane, it's not sane I just want someone to say to me. I'll always be there when U wake ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today. So stay with me and I'll have it made. And I don't understand why I sleep all day and I start to complain that there's no rain And All I can do is read a book to stay awake it rips my life away, but its a great escape...escape...escape All I can say is that my life is pretty plain ya don't like my point of view ya think that I'm insane it's not sane... its not sane I just want someone to say to me. I'll always be there when you wake. ya know i'd like to keep my cheeks dry today so stay with me and I'll have it made. end --"no rain", Blind Melon 12-7-97 Moo. 12-6-97 "To hang on from day to day and from week to week, spinning out a present that had no future, seemed an unconquerable instinct, just as one's lungs will always draw the next breath so long as there is air available." -George Orwell's _1984_ (126) 12-5-97 The TAMS Whitepages is/are maintained by Charlie Cano Pass this along so it can be as full as possible. http://atlas1.mit.edu/TAMSWhitepages/home.html Dig it! Benji's got a domain name! When I'm on, subjectivereality.dyn.ml.org will point to my machine! :) --- I chopped my plan. again. you can see it at http://people.unt.edu/~bgb0004/plan-19971209.txt and http://people.unt.edu/~bgb0004/plan-19971012.txt